Timing

It's an interesting thing, isn't it? Timing can be a bad thing or a good thing. It seems to sneak up on you at the most unexpected time. Now some of my readers know that I believe in fate, that things happen for a reason and that I do not, in any way, believe in a coincidence. And with that belief, it's been a interesting last couple months. A lot of change, some I welcomed and some I tried to stop, but all eventually ended up being for the better.

I've been worn out, physically and emotionally. Have felt as though I have been dragging my feet to no where, living a very routine schedule, which felt so routine that I wasn't going anywhere, I was just staying. I was stuck in a hole that I could not climb out of. I was disappointed, discouraged that everything I was doing was not working. My constant and rigorous job search, interview after interview after interview, and worry with what seemed like no open doors was getting to me, dragging me down and wearing me out, stressing me out. And on top of all that there was everything else. More I was dealing with. Dating, friends, loss, life, etc.

Trying to keep it together this week after a small breakdown, I was leaving my families house a few nights ago. I unlocked my car, started it, plugged in my iPhone for music, switched the stereo over to the iPod setting and hit shuffle. All of which is a very routine thing for me each time I get in my car, except hitting shuffle. Generally I will play one of two of my playlists, my purchased songs, which contain the newest music/newest purchases OR another playlist with music that always seems to calm me down, cheer me up, etc.

The songs started, I was probably ten minute from my families house when a song came on that caught my attention. The words were as if it was written about the last few months I have had. Before I knew it, tears were welling up in my eyes. Something that I try my hardest to hide, not let happen, but this time I couldn't control it. I repeated the song a few times, just listening to the words with the tears contenting. The words seemed so perfect and they were welcomed. I needed to near them. Some might find this silly, but I don't care what you think, to me, it was a perfect moment and a moment I desperately needed.

Generally when I write about songs, I post the music video to the song, but this time because the words were what meant so much to me, I decided to post them.  However, if you'd like to listen to the song, here is a link to the song courtesy of the great YouTube.

Lessons Learned
Carrie Underwood

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some bitter endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should've taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

And all the things that break you,
Are all the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,

There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should've taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

And all the things that break you,
Are all the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Lessons learned.


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